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lols, went to school at about 7plus. i thought it was 7.20 le -.- then go up... surprise! the door was open le! lols. finally azfar come early. before come to school, i actually got stomach cramps de. then put medicated oil. de ji xiang pai ru yi you, i think. aha! its yu yee oil! lols. so i put de oil. i love the smell!! lols. then after that when playing hanyi's phone, suddenly my cramps start again >< so pain sia! so i grabbed my book and ran to the toilet. i realised later that i looked like a noob >< lols, so humiliating!! then after that for the rest of the day, i felt okay, though. lame sia. i never wanna have such cramps again! during assembly got the achievement thingy. congrats to: natasha, ruiwen, zawiah, aziemah and umairah!!! then it was maths. ms liauw give us, erm, job positions? lols. i finally can be noise controller! but alas! it was short lived... lame sia. then was p.e. mini tennis! must play doubles! lols. me, jiayuan, hanyi, zawiah, ruiwen and lirong anyhow de!! we just play for the sake of playing :D then me and natasha down there taking the racket and strumming it as if it were a guitar :D very funny sia! then we sang songs like Jenny, Lay My Love On You, If I Let You Go, etc... fun sia!! i wanna do it again sometime! lols! then geography. yeah, ms cheng never come! but the cher catch me playing >< we played pass the message. i wrote on sreni's hand, i am a freaking gigolo and i want to fuck geography! then sreni wrote that on dom's hand, ha ha! lols. then dom write on sreni's hand, i hate chang yu, rita, aini and bernice. lols. wanna make me get into trouble with SJAB seniors! so i wanna get him into trouble too. i wrote, i hate SJAB+ and jiayuan. lols, and he wanna retaliate by writing maths equations on my hand, if you can believe it! maths equations indeed! he must be crazy, that silly guy. luckily i dodged that thing. i suddenly suggested truth or dare!! hhas. then i think it was...junxiang first, i think. he chose dare. someone dared him to kiss azfar. ohmygod, he really did it!! so funny. and azfar was like shocked. funny sia. then aziemah tried to kiss natasha. then azfar was, like, even more shocked! lols. then it was sreni! they asked him what was his underwear colour. he siad it was the same as his skin colour -.- lols. then it was shahirah. i asked what was her butt size. hahas, she din answer me. then dom. he said truth. we asked him jiayuan related questions. then me. junxiang ask me hongkai related questions -.- then azie join in. but is donno who, but i asked for the butt size ^^ lols. then me. azie ask me what's my cup size. its A27. lols. then azie's. hers is tinier than A, she said. i asked her to describe her ahem. she told me it was the size of an apple. i went goggle eyed. she amended it to half orange, i think. lols. then recess. me and lirong and hanyi say the commercial, the yu yee oil commercial. fun sia. then MT. i never learn spelling. so i copy lor. then janser was eating biscuits. i told him just now got spider die there. he drop the biscuit mah. lols, then he really believe. then i said just now sreni kena shit, then step there. he dropped another one mah. then he also believe -.- lame. then english. lols, i get jinkheng de! his one funny sia! his 'addiction' become addition! lols. but i like his sentence, 'it was like looking for an oasis but found a mirage'. but, lols, i donno what it means then CE. ahhh! change place. in the end im beside janser. he got leg hair. ohkay, lols. i just realised that, hahas. but havent finalised yet. then eat lunch with kellie and kaiwen. then go SJAB. blehh, got CCC again. then we do footdrills and cases... then im tired as hell >< im gonna sleep at 11.20 tonight, i think. i wanna watch TV le... night. cheers!
habboing?
recently i took up habboing again. well, i dont know why too.. but it was fun anyway. i read jiayuan's blog yesterday. blehhs, she spelt my name as shermiane!!! grrrr. then she had talked about that time we go arcade then those two came. lols, sorry yuan, i din mean to make you, erm, uncomfortable.. coz everytime they come its like we, okay, i cannot be myself. wont you feel self conscious when they are sort of watching your every move? well, erm, i will.. and some more i seriously dont like him that way.. and he also make it very obvious that he like me that way.. so i feel so damn uncomfortable really im sorry i know you are okay being yourself around liew.. real sorry.. lols, i wont mind if you wan go arcade yourself coz i know im being, erm, so lame -.- lols ;D im not angry at you luhhs im just feel like im so, erm, pathetic?? lols
i gotta make a point here: I HATE YOU, you're such an, oh, i dont know. but you're being a bitch and you dont know it. sucking up to people, huh. well, newsflash! your looks arent that fabulous, you look just ordinary, and sucking up isnt gonna get you anywhere! who knows, you might be dissed one day. and then i'll tell ya, i told you so. disappeared
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i didnt come visit my own blog. coz my parents were behind me everytime i use com!! miss me? i think im taking a break from blogging. hahas, i wanna watch 鬥牛要不要 on youtube! mike he so shuai... so maybe i wont come see my blog that often now... but maybe i would. once in a while :D buhbye le...gotta prepare my bag! later going toa payoh library, yeahs~ untitled ^^
i was on msn last night.
i got a surprise. i didnt know timothy started conversations with, "hey babe, ....." god, i was like making goggle eyes at the screen! hey babe???? i think he thought i was aziemah. he asked me SJAB question mah. but anyway. i think im gonna make my sis late for tuition. gotta go asap!!! cheers!!!!! OLE2: JALAN BAHTERA!!
just read jiayuan's blog. now's my turn to write my short, short life at jalan bahtera! DAY1 i was like running late at home, so i chiong and take my bags (school bag, one big BATA plastic bag, and my shoe bag). school bag: my pants, shirts, utensils, 1.5litre bottle filled with my house de water. erm, got boil before de water, poncho, plasters, soap bag, plastic bag. BATA plastic bag: my, um, undergarments, towel, hanger, big plastic bags (two), o.5litre empty bottle (my house run out of water), personal things (?) shoe bag: shoe lah, duh. no, got my old shoe and slippers. so i was actually dreading it. went there, i thought i was late. and i guess i looked like a noob, wearing p.e. shirt, and beige half knee pants, and carrying that load of crap. jiayuan pei me go refill my o.5, then we sat in front of shahira and natasha. then saw two red tee shirt people. okay, women, whatever. they were nellie and steph. (i knew that later, of course) then they were each holding a sheet of paper. group list. then found out jiayuan they all not in my group. rui wen was. so was cassandra, sherwyne, ruby, azie, aliyah and dza. and priya ;D then we went on the bus. i thought i was never coming back again. ha ha. i sat alone, i think. zawiah sat with jiayuan. then when reached there, all i could think of is, ohmygod, this is the point of no return!! then we sat in groups. erm, i mean classes. then we went to our hut... yeah, our hut. me, jiayuan slept in the corner. zawiah beside me. no fair, our space was cramped like i donno what. but we survived, yeah! we had played bonding games, mainly splat and double whacko. then we played low elements. the wall thingy. group1 went first. they took four minutes plus. we went next. we took two minutes plus! okay, so technically it wasnt fair, because we had sort of watched group1's mistakes and we had strategized before playing it. then it was the... bridge? can move de... then when our group played, steph said we cheated. then when nellie pulled us aside to give us some pep talk, azfar and they all were abit bu shuang, so they picked on group1's slightest mistake. but there were no hard feelings after that. then it was lunch, i think. we needed to serve. erm, food, of course. but i did nothing, and i dont know why too. the food was delicious, anyway. then it was... i forgot. but we went to bathe for the first time, then we queued up for a cubicle with a spoilt lock. in the end, it was me who bathed in the spoilt cubicle :D i forgot to bring conditioner! so my hair was like crap. then we ate dinner. e2's turn! timothy was serving. and he said, "hey, i know you!" okay, yeah, of course you do! we're both in SJAB, brother! so, yeah, the food was great. i always say that, ha. then it was blind man's trail, i think. didnt like it so much. i bumped into a fat pillar. god, i can be so clumsy. before the trail began we kena scold by chief zico. hhas, we didnt keep quiet, that's why. then it was our first night in the hut. i slept on my sleeping bag. i figured that i would most probably feel hot if i buried myself inside. DAY2 ha ha. i woke up the earliest. well, in my opinion, that is. coz i kept hearing an alarm clock. i guess it drove me crazy eventually. i was like so paranoid that we were running late. but the whole bunk was asleep, so i figured if we were really late, the whole bunk would late together. the alarm clock was just so freaking irritating. so me and jiayuan woke up, and wanted to go down. we were prepared: toilet paper, toothbrush, toothpaste. but we didnt expect nellie to be sleeping under us. mygod. so i faked her and said that i had a stomachache. she told me to wait until later, can you believe it? but i got my way in the end, yeahs. got PT!!! sort of love it, i guess. breakfast was beehoon. i didnt like beehoon much, so i guess i didnt enjoy my breakfast. it was e3's turn. sumit called me a little girl. and i guess he was trying to provoke me coz he purposely pour the milo so much like he had no intention of stopping. then i was like so scared he might overflow it. then never overflow. make me so paiseh in front of ric. then we went for low elements again. we played fidget ladder. eee, gotta sing on top!!! im not gonna elaborate further. it was embarrassing!! then i dont know, khairul was the last, and unfair, he need not do anything while he was on top!!! what the hell?! he play cheat!!! okay, so it was nellie; she allowed. due to the freaking time constraint. then we were like rushing back to the hall. i think we were the last class to arrive. but the thing is, group1 came even later than us!!! god. they went to play something very far away, i think. then it started raining. no more kayaking. yeahs. i never anticipated it anyway. but the instructors taught us cheers and stuff. and mess dance, i think. naz said that it was a dance that is in a mess, so its a mess dance. lols. it was xi shua shua! love it so much. then was titanic cheer, then we sang songs, etc. it was lovely :D then it was lunch, i think. outdoor cooking! me and jiayuan ate sort of raw noodles. blehh. then wash up? yeah, i think it was. ha, this time, jiayuan asked me to go reserve a toilet! with my track shoes on!! i was like so alarmed when people started queueing and bathing and i was standing in the cubicle like an idiot. so jiayuan had no choice but to throw me my things. and then she went to queue for the spoilt lock toilet. she and the e2 NPCC girl took turns to hold the lock for each other. then we went back to the hut. hut1 was running late! dinner again. god, its getting monotonous. e4's turn! the food was nice, hahas. when lining up, sumit was behind me. he actually remembered what i'd sort of made him promise! i thought he had forgotten me... so when he tapped me and said, "oi, i thought you ask me to talk to you next time i see you? then you never talk!" so i told him, "my god, sorry! coz i thought you forgot me le... coz you know that aric from e4 one? he purposely never see me..." okay i know i've been harping at that issue for don't know how long... but YEAH!!! at least sumit still recognise me. the aric was guarding the washing area, i think. i think he wont expect a hello from me. what the hell, he forgot the sort of promise! i told him to say hello to me if i saw him. and that day in school, it was a friday, i think. he was carrying his chinese ochestra thingy, case, i think. and i was coincidentally walking out of the toilet decked in full brigade uniform. he knew who i was; i could still be recognised. but he chose to dip down his head and not acknowledge me! and i was like a dumb freak, i had actually started to raise up my hand to wave hello, and he cut off all eye contact. i felt self humiliated, and so now i only smile at him. huh. sort of friends. so the dishwater was dirty, i hate it soooooooo much!!! it doesn't clean my plate at all. and my utensils. then it was kidnapped after dinner. lisa and janser kena kidnapped! i didnt even participate in it. it was like i was not included. they were all queueing up and saying some freaking number. anyway, we rescued janser. he even tried to run away while being handcuffed, if you can believe it! jamie later was talking about how lisa had been very quiet when she came out. scary. but i think she was okay after that. sleep time! i guess i was too HAYWIRED :D my blog, HAYWIRED!! lols. DAY3 i still wanted to sleep. ha ha. PT again!! then it was breakfast -.- beehoon again!!! ><>DAY4 we gotta go home... we did general cleaning. then we were up on the bus, leaving jalan bahtera. when we were at AISS, we posed for a few photos... ---------------------------------------------------- i went to jiayuan's house. we ate expired prawn crackers!!! :D then we went to sun plaza play star factory. DDR!!! then i went home straight from woodlands interchange... ---------------------------------------------------- shermainelovesjalanbahtera. bigger! shermaine loves jalan bahtera. more bigger! shermainelovesjalanbahtera. bigger!!! shermainelovesjalanbahtera. bigger! bigger!! bigger!!! shermainelovesjalanbahtera!!!!! HATE CAMPS!!!
god, im hating camps so much!!
especially camps which require nature... which is, namely: OLE2 crap, and then two days after OLE2 there's SJAB march promotion camp. jesus, as what i said in my msn, i think im getting a camp overdose. last year de OLE1 was quite ok coz they sort of let us slack as we were sec ones. but OLE2...i really dont wanna even imagine what sort of activities they have. i just hope it wont be like the chongfu that time the P5 camp, need to go inside the mud...then in the end the shoes must throw away -.- then march promotion camp, dont even know whether i'll be promoted or not. yay, im in achievement day parade :D never went for it before. but i think its cool! maybe its just because i've never attended this before, so i think that its cool. so today before the rehearsal, bernice play with me the scissors paper stone slapping game. and... now i've got bruises. two, in fact. she the second person who hit me until got bruise. the first is chan zheng zhi. well, anyway. its late, i think, and i wanna polish my SJAB boots. cheers! wednesday: SJAB?
lols, i cant believe there's gonna be SJAB every wed ><
though it was fun today ;D it was like, we first kicked off with footdrill, asyikin as the judge. i folded my skirt, as it was too long. [: so my spectacles kept sliding down, and i had no choice but to push it up even though we were in DIAM position. then we went for a rest. then we went inside SJAB room and sat down. aha! then we bandaged aziemah...umairah did a scalp bandage on her, aliyah did a figure of eight on her, while i did a v-bandage and a vertical laceration bandage [i dont really know the proper name] then sir came. my god, i thought it was mr thiru! when actually it was chang yu -.- aziemah looked like a freak, as her scalp bandage made her look like a "cancer patient", as quoted by umairah. bernice was like laughing so loud. then we balanced aziemah on the toilet bowl cum seat (?). we took out the bandage in the end coz we needed to to FA case. so tarilyn and xinpeng were our casualties. xinpeng has an amputation, and second degree burns. then aziemah asked me to do two-man cpr with aliyah. so i did. and i think i didnt press correctly. but i dont know, as the electronic thingy was spoilt anyway. so aliyah was doing rescue breathing, and i was looking at how she did it...when i noticed that when she said "two a thousand, three a thousand.....", she didnt let go of the nose, and kept pinching it. i was like shocked and looked at bernice, aka the judge. her eyes were wide too, and she was smiling. i could help but laugh too. then i realised that all of them wear gloves and i didnt wear. god, i can be so lame. then the NA FA case. i was casualty. quite okay, i guess. then it started raining like hell, then all of them covered their ears and then there was thunder. then tarilyn emptied my pockets, and there was my tamagotchis, handphone, watch...omg, then they were trying not to laugh >< then went inside SJAB room, we played the scissors paper stone slap game. azie had tonal value [: xin peng was playing cheat! she gave me extra slaps!!! [: then bernice was like yelling so loudly. xDD and then i guess i went home? i forgot ;D ///
i still have something to add.
i admit, actually im feeling very insecure, and sort of got in into my thick head that, "oh, she must be thinking what a bitch im being" and it was ALL MY PSYCHOLOGICAL problems that made me feel that insecure. seriously, im not trying to blame you, because i brought this upon myself, i made my self believe something that im afraid about. you must be really angry, and i do realise that if it were me, i'd feel the same too. though i regret this alot, i dont think i can do anything to salvage it. everything will change from now on, and i hope that i will be able to cope with this change without stressing myself out. im not gonna ask you to forgive me. i guess i dont really deserved it and had it coming. i just wanted you to know that you were really a great friend, and it was my own misconseption of something that wasnt supposed to happen had happened just because i was feeling goddamn insecure and chose to believe it. i dont hate you. i guess the person i can blame and hate is just myself. |